Can’t take being misgendered and harassed. He/himed. People starting arguments over their own intolerance and blaming the arguments on drag. Banned from trans communities on blahaj and then unbanned but the unban didn’t federate, so don’t know where to post this. In so much pain. Hopes this post won’t lead to more pain. What do you do when nobody will believe you’re hurt, and every time you scream out in pain, you’re accused of having an agenda? What kind of agenda is just not wanting to be harassed anymore? They think they’re winning when they fill a thread with drama and then complain about all the drama. They think they’re doing something right? How do you tell people you’re honestly suffering and have them believe you?
self-harm thoughts
Do you just cut your skin open and show it to them? Is that how you convince them that they’re causing you pain? HOW? How the fuck do you convince them that your pain isn’t a trick?
They tell you to block them while they misgender you and tell the whole world you’re the devil. “Just ignore everything I’m doing to hurt you and you’ll be okay”. It doesn’t make any sense but they think it’s right. They could choose to disengage this very minute but they don’t. They think harassment and misgendering is a crusade of justice. That hurting people is a moral good, but oh no, don’t you dare claim you’re hurt when I hurt you.
How the fuck do you post your tears on lemmy?
Drag uses Lemmy to dissociate and keep the traumatic thoughts away. Don’t want to go without that. Drag has friends online but they aren’t always available. They need to sleep and do their own things a lot of the time. Drag wishes there were better places on the internet, but it doesn’t seem like there are. It would be the same on Xitter, Reddit, Facebook. Mastodon and Tumblr are boring and don’t help drag zone out. Drag has never tried Tiktok and after the last few days, never will.
Thank you for the kindness. Drag wishes that people who harass and misgender would be stopped, either by the community or by the people in charge. But that doesn’t happen. The more drag defends dragself, the worse it gets.
How do normal people look at these screenshots and see brave heroes showing the evil trans person what for?? The votes say that’s what’s happening. That knowledge is worse than any other part of it.
yeah I always see people on lemmy being EXTREMELY quick at calling anyone a troll, I specially see people being accused of being alts literally every time I look at a post outside blahaj X3
honestly if it was me I think Id at first defend myself but eventually get tired and just ignore and block these people on sight, if the reason I use lemmy is just to have fun anyway
but Im not in ur situation so idk if there r any issues on that plan, just keep in mind that some people r just unwilling to learn new things and theres not much that u can do against that without letting it hurt u
Seeing harassment causes an immediate physical reaction. But knowing there are people out there spreading their harassment campaign and drag can’t see them and nothing is getting better… That’s an existential dread. That’s what makes it feel like life isn’t worth living. Drag unfortunately has object permanence and would know it’s out there if drag blocked it.
Drag blocked the transphobe in this screenshot, and that gave a respite. But drag will only be able to feel safe when drag has unblocked them and can see what horrible stuff they’re saying to everyone else. The unknown is terrifying.
oh yeh I know that, but sadly thats something we need to live with and try to not let it affect us :/ Ive had that feeling in many different communities and in life in general and Im always anxious when joining a new community but at the end of the day the world is full of awesome people and horrible people and everything in between and its better to not think about the horrible people, its very hard to ignore but it makes life a lot easier
progress is slow and sometimes it looks like it takes a few steps back but at the end of the day things always get better and better with time, that is of course cuz theres people constantly fighting for that progress to happen but part of the fight is knowing when its better to just focus on urself 🫶
I bet u already know all that but just wanted to give some positivity to someone that needs it :3