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Mentally/emotionally draining. Minimum 4 more fucking years of this…
Really want to get a different (non-government) job; clearly any reputation of stability isn’t there anymore (not convinced it really has been in years), and the pay never was. Had no expectation of ever retiring anyway, so not against draining retirement funds to GTFO and move elsewhere for a new job.
I’ve been putting off The Cleaning that needed to happen to deal with any ash that potentially got in during the fires, but now that it’s rained it’s made me feel like it won’t be a futile effort, so we did it today. Holy fuck do I feel like my brain is melting out of my ears, I’m so exhausted. You never know how much shit you have until you have to move it all and dust it. We worked for at least 3 solid hours doing nothing but dusting and vacuuming.
And we don’t even have a big apartment! Just a lot of open shelving with knick knacks… as soon as we have the money the first thing we’re doing is replacing everything with shelving that has glass doors. And if that doesn’t keep the dust off, I’m just going full minimalist, lmao.
FIVE months on HRT (ah, ah, ah) – moar boob pls
Caught myself in the mirror the other day: “oh no, I’ve been going around with some cotton stuck to my face.” No, I just forgot to shave for a few days. Laser has really worked magic and left me with almost nothing but hard-to-spot gray hairs. Probably still want to get electrolysis at some point because I can still feel the stubble.
so busy, omg 😭
