The worst part is: I feel like I want this soo badly but I don’t know if I really want it. The imagination of having someone is the sweetest thing in existence but in all reality, I don’t think that I could handle having someone that close to me… I don’t understand my sexuality, but that’s fine. I’ll just post memes to cope with it and cry into my Blahaj when I need to

src for the background image: https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/119419109

    • Squished Fly (she/they)OPEnglish
      27·
      2 months ago

      The first draft of the meme actually had it just be “someone” and every pronoun be “they” so yeah, I feel you

  • TotallynotJessica@lemmy.worldMEnglish
    27·
    2 months ago

    You’re a cute girl and you are loved! Come here 🤗

    If it is HRT related...

    It could be a monthly cycle thing. I personally get sad, feel weak/achy, and get lower back pain a few days after feeling extra horny. Everyone is different and there can be a million and one different symptoms, but you can get everything besides proper menstruation. At first I thought there might be something wrong, but when I realized they were coming periodically, I felt more at ease.

    • Squished Fly (she/they)OPEnglish
      25·
      2 months ago

      Thank you 🤗

      I didn’t consider that it could be the hormonal cycle but yeah, that could very likely be it. I absolutely have noticed several things that would 100% line up with it the last few days

      (Also, you just made me realize that I’ve been on HRT for 6 weeks already. Holy hell, time flies)

  • pixeltreeEnglish
    22·
    2 months ago

    Mooooood. One of the few hook ups I’ve had, afterwards, he held me close, little spoon, and ran his finger delicately around my side and abs and told me that was the sexiest part of me and told me I was amazing and it was hard to not burst into tears. I’d never felt attractive before. I’d never felt truly wanted like that before. I don’t think I will again. It’s harder now, when you’ve been starved for affection and touch for so long having a brief glimpse of it is almost worse than never having had it at all. It’ll take a long time to numb back down I think.

  • Dave2English
    12·
    2 months ago

    I am very bad at counseling people but like are you okay? I am like… here if you wanna talk?

    • Squished Fly (she/they)OPEnglish
      14·
      2 months ago

      Thank you but I think I’m fine. Estro just made me feel very needy and I don’t have many friends in my area that I can hug

      • Dave2English
        14·
        2 months ago

        If you’re fine then all’s fine (you should probably make a few of those friends huggable, but that’s just my opinion)

  • Delilah (She/Her)English
    5·
    2 months ago

    I’ll do it for some of your HRT.

    visiting the doctor scares me so I’m too paralyzed by fear to get it myself

  • Nexy@lemmy.sdf.orgEnglish
    4·
    2 months ago

    Mood.

    Actually I have a gf but we see each other like one or two times per month, the two of us are bottoms and I always have to be the top for her. I need some arms and cheast were lie on too and feel weak.

    • Squished Fly (she/they)OPEnglish
      2·
      26 days ago

      Surprisingly, I’ve seen a lot of breast growth over just 7 weeks or so

      And I cry a lot more easily now and I’m a lot happier with myself