Squished Fly (she/they)

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Cake day: February 28th, 2024

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  • Squished Fly (she/they)toTransHow's your week been?
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    10 days ago

    I sure hope so, I’ve been going through a rough patch for quite a few weeks now…

    But I’ll take the best of it. HRT might have made me into even more of a crybaby but the fact that I’m managing even now proves that I have become a lot stronger with it


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    10 days ago

    I probably just experienced the worst week in a long while…

    My insomnia is getting bad enough that my sleep meds don’t work, I had a massive panic attack in the middle of a train station (couldn’t breathe properly and move and stuff) and just sobbed on the floor for 10 minutes without anyone giving a shit about me and me continuing to cry for 3 hours after coning home.

    Then I found out that we’re being kicked out of our home soon and then I had a reeeaallyyy rough meeting with my boss which led me to cry for another 15 minutes at work (I was alone in the office at that point since I had so much work that I had to do ~10h of overtime despite being employed full time already).

    Then when the week was finally over and I thought that it can’t get any worse, my dad called me and told me that one of our cats died…

    And finally, the only thing I was looking forward to all week, an online event in a game. I wasn’t able to join because fuck if I know.

    Life just hated me for 7 days in a row but I’m still standing. Probably because I did the best decision ever and took an emotional support plushie with me to work.

    I’m still standing!









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    28 days ago

    I didn’t know ARFID was something that existed…

    I just internalized the fact that I’m anorexic because everyone told me I am but without any psychologist/therapist ever diagnosing me with it. Thank you so much for showing me that something that describes me so perfectly exists ;-;



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    1 month ago

    I know that pain, that feeling of helplessness while waiting for stupid appointments and paperwork while knowing that your entire body is filled with hormones that slowly drive you into insanity. But you know what? Even if it takes as much as another year, it’s nothing in comparison to the lifetime you’ll have with the correct hormones.

    I believe in you sister, you got this!


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    1 month ago

    Spoken like we share a brain. “ok but I could be productive”

    Tho I do feel like it might be a little better if I would get bottom surgery but that’s quite a bit in the future. For now i’m just happy that estro killed almost all of my drive.


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    1 month ago

    Heh it’s actually very similar for me too:

    Orgasms and food are a waste of time that just makes me feel uncomfortable and I only waste my time with it when it’s absolutely necessary. And even then, the faster it’s over, the better (even if I might enjoy it in the moment).

    People keep saying it’s the best thing ever and i’m incredibly confused by that



  • Have you always been injecting it? Maybe our body just doesn’t work with it…

    I’m not a medical professional but I could see a case where your body processes your injected estrogen too quickly leading to big and constant hormone fluctuations. Don’t really know too much about what that would do to your body but it would make sense for your psyche to suffer a lot from it.

    Edit: if you don’t want to / can’t get pills, you could try doing 1/4 your current dosage every other day and see how that turns out (if it’s even possible with your type if syringe (DON’T REUSE THEM!!))