Well, as the title says, I Am curious what Dysphoria feels like for you? When/how did you realise, that certain feelings are in reality Dysphoria?
Edit: Damn, some of you really have lived through a lot. I Am very happy that I can’t really relate to quite some of the comments here, because that sounds horrible.
Are you me? I see quite a lot of parallels here. I am sorry you dealt with this, too. I haven’t started electrolysis yet (soon, hopefully) and a friend made a comment about my five o’clock shadow today. I was visibly upset to the point that my spouse was squeezing my hand. It wasn’t his fault since he doesn’t know yet, but it still stings.
It’s shocking how similar our experiences can be - I remember reading Yes, You Are Trans Enough by Mia Violet in the first weeks after egg-cracking and social transition, and I was shocked how similar we were, even down to the internet subcommunities we were in as teenagers and so on.
I started thinking I was nothing like trans women, and after learning what trans women are like, I learned that I am a walking stereotype.
And beard shadow is the devil, I really thought I was indifferent to it, but apparently I am not. I hate the way I look when even a tiny amount of beard shadow is showing, not even enough for most people to notice.
I’m sorry you had someone point it out, ick - I avoided situations like that by socially transitioning as soon as my egg cracked, I came out immediately to everyone. That had its downsides, like trying to live as a woman and dress full fem without any HRT was extremely difficult, and looking back I realize now it was an unnecessary hardship.