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Tired, both physically (why? Idk) and mentally.
Less than 30 days till I most likely get furloughed (gov shutdown deadline of about march 14th, ill be shocked if it doesn’t happen). At least I’m not in a probationary period for my position, i guess?
Finally scheduled an appointment for formal ADHD testing (with a referral from a psychiatrist for that reason) and its damn near two months out… that just feels like an eternity. I just want to get my life sorted out and its seriously holding me back and stressing me out.
Been doing pretty well. College has been really good for me and I feel happy in spite of all that’s going on in the world. Thriving is resistance.
The state of the world vis-a-vis trans stuff has me bouncing back and forth between “I guess I’ll just stay in the closet for the foreseeable future” and “keep being bigots, assholes, it’s only making me transer”. I need to pull my finger out and actually figure out DIYing in the UK and then just do it
Concluded a 2 year long D&D campaign today with a level 20 finale. Thankful to have people in my life who love and accept me enough to choose to listen to me talk for 5 hours on a Sunday 🥴
I may be presenting more fem than I thought. Roughly translated:
- “So, you’ve given up being a man then?”
- “Err, well, kind of…” ← (very surprised me was too shy to just say “yes”)
- “It’s OK. You should follow your heart.”
People can be so nice <3
