So for the past few months, usually near the beginning of the month, I will have a few days where I am super depressed and emotional. Today is one of those days. It started off with me waking up crying at 2 am for no reason and I was literally sobbing for 2 hours before I was able to fall back asleep. Then I waking up, I felt super depressed. I have not felt this much depression since I started taking an anti-depresant 5 years ago. I hardly ate anything today and I pretty much just layed around. I tried working out for an hour, and even that couldn’t make me happy. I am assuming that this is going to happen again next month, and idk what to do cause it is super debilitating. Asides from these few days, I am very happy otherwise. I have been on hrt for 5 months now, I’m hoping maybe prog will help with it once I’m able to get it. I don’t know how to manage it until then since my usual coping mechanism isn’t working and I also don’t know if prog will even solve it in the first place.

  • pruneaue
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    1 year ago

    Kind of like the other comment said, ive felt this. It got a lot less bad over time, i assume its just foreign feelings for your body/mind.
    Im pretty used to depression but those episodes felt very different than my normal downs like it was caused by a different chemical process if that makes sense 😂

    My worse months were like 2 to 6

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    1 year ago

    I’ve noticed the same. You could use a period tracking app or daily emotions app to track it if you want. I think Progesterone will also have an effect on emotions. So just be aware if you ever start that.

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    1 year ago

    Hang in there girl! I get the monthly cycle as well, for me the first two or three months were definitely more intense, and it’s gotten easier and more predictable since. As with all things ymmv but if you can stick it out hopefully it should get easier with time. Sending virtual hugs, be gentle and kind to yourself <3