I could write a lot about this but I’m going to keep it on the short side.

When my dysphoria was at the worst every day felt more and more hopeless. I woke up wishing I could go back to sleep which was the only time I had some happiness. Living felt like trudging through thick disgusting sludge and as time went on the sludge got thicker. I think I would have succumbed to it if I didn’t get HRT when I did.

I also sometimes also have this vision where my deadname has wings and a horde of them is swarming me like ravenous monstrous bats while I’m standing there trying to shield myself and swat them away. Often times when I think of dysphoria, that and the sludge is what comes to mind.

Yeah it’s broken now. It was working earlier so it must have just recently been removed.

Secular isn’t a religion. It just means they are neutral towards it, which honestly, every therapist should be that way. It’s also a good thing to have a therapist that supports your identity. I have a lot of religious trauma related to me being queer and I would be very upset if I went to a therapist and they tried to convert me back to christianity and denied my queer identity. People do have problems where knowing their therapists beliefs would make them feel a lot safer and I don’t think that would actually impede progress.

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Same here, nearly 1 year on prog. I think it helped more with shape and didn’t do much with size as well. There is oral progesterone available though, if you don’t want to take the suppository ones.

And as cool as gargantuan genuines are, smaller breasts are still beautiful too, and they don’t cause back pain either, so that’s nice at least.

Oh sorry I assumed wrong. In that case progesterone could help, as someone else has already mentioned. I’m on prog and I think it’s helped somewhat. It makes me eepy though so I primarily use it as a sleeping pill now lol

By opposite, I’m assuming you mean breast growth with no other feminizing changes? That I am not sure about how to achieve. Off the top of my head, I’m thinking that one could maybe go on a T blocker and/or estradiol for a while, and then stop. The breasts should still persist despite stopping, although they may shrink somewhat. Aside from that there is also breast augmentation surgery.

If you don’t want boobs, you could take raloxifene alongside estradiol to get feminization without much or any breast growth.

When I was in highschool I always sat because fuck the us government, but also, I agree, that the pledge is really creepy. One guy who sat next to me in French class actually punched me in the jaw one time because he was upset that I never stood.

I actually live very close to the Canadian border so I’m considering it.

I’m not who you replied to, but leaving is not easy. Moving costs money and puts you far away from friends and family. You also need to be able to stay in the country long enough to be able to apply for citizenship and that’s not easy either. Also if you’re a minority going through TSA is scary because who knows if they are going to pull you aside and assault you or worse. I’m trans and I’ve thought of leaving but TSA scares me.

Fear is common, change is scary, and you are not alone. In my experience, the first few weeks after realizing that you’re trans feel the most scary. I had the same fears about ‘what is my family going to think?’ I’m a young’un so, I don’t have a spouse and children like you do, but I know that coming out to family is scary, and that it might be hard at first, but if they love you they will likely come around eventually, some people just need time to process. Although I have no experience with coming out to a partner, I do wish you the best of luck and I hope it works out well for you!

I wish it was but it isn’t.

I have over 2,000 hours in terraria and way more in minecraft. Really anything with good building or creative features is going to hook me for quite a while.

I suppose, although it’s not hard to have it aggregate from EU sources only. I know qwant uses Microsoft services so…

Why do I never see SearXNG listed? It’s FOSS and there’s a bunch of different instances hosted in a variety of countries. You can even control what search engines it uses to aggregate its search results.

I worked as a cashier for about two years, so I do have some social skills, but too much noise and activity tires me out quickly. I chose online college partly because I can do it in an environment that’s comfortable to me since I can’t do that with work, it helps me get somewhat of a break. I have a friend I made at work who’s also autistic and doing an online CS degree. I find them easy to talk to and they are more outgoing than me, and they have helped me figure out how to better socialize. I have been experiencing autistic burnout the past few months though, so lately I have been regressing on some things. I don’t know if I’m going to make it, but atm I feel like I will eventually.

I like online learning because I’m autistic and in person learning makes me uncomfortable. I can tolerate it but it gets really tiring eventually. I’m currently a senior and am almost done with my computer science bachelor’s which I’ve done entirely online.

Online discussions suck, but so do in person discussions. Talking to neurotypicals is stressful just anticipating having to do it and trying to pretend to be “normal” really wipes me out.

I agree that some majors and classes are way better in person and I get that some people need to go in person to motivate themselves, but also going in person ends up being worse for some other people. I don’t think people should be forced to learn online, but I think the option should be there if it is reasonable to do that class online.

I was thinking a freshwater beach. I don’t live anywhere near an ocean, but I do live near a bunch of lakes. Yes, the house could be built in a bad location where it ends up flooding, but if it’s on a hill near the lake, then it is fine.