Getting hit with a lot of emotions. Some scary and some exciting.

My wife is being really supportive and we’ve been talking through all of this the past couple days nonstop.

Part of me is ready to shave everything and start HRT and feel pretty, but I’m also fucking terrified about how my world will react. It’s also only been a few days but I feel like a whole new world has been opened up to me?

I don’t know. I want to everyone and nobody so I thought I’d scream into the void here. Hope that is ok.

I’m so fucking empowered by all of you

  • macniel@feddit.de
    6·
    1 year ago

    But definitely this winter when I can experiment undetected under long clothing

    One time I was an anxious wreck though, hiding my hands half the day.

    That’s totally fine. We got lots of internalised trans-“phobia” (its not a phobia, they are just assholes!) to deal with and getting over that takes time.

    • Blahaj_Blast
      6·
      1 year ago

      I think I’m undoing lots of internalized stuff. Slowly making progress though!

    • Blahaj_Blast
      5·
      1 year ago

      That does make me feel better about it, but going from an area that is fairly accepting, traveling through the middle of nowhere to an area that I don’t know how friendly it is. I don’t want to draw any odd attention to myself.

    • Vlaxtocia [she/her]
      3·
      1 year ago

      100%! The internalised transphobia isn’t being afraid of being trans, it’s being afraid of people reacting to us being trans