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Ive kinda considered quiet quitting mg transition, I feel like few take it serrious, and my friends that do it feels like they are just being nice to me cause they feel bad that my dreams just are not possible. At this point ive kinds reached the idea that I’ll just boymode forever and hope they silently change my ID back to male so I can just go back into the closet while still on HRT since its so far in the past 2 years made virtually zero difference for me. I dont wanna get off hrt but at the same time, I know I’ll never be seen my general population as a women. I just feel like its too late since I started at 200+ lbs and fat couldn’t redistirube properly so ive permently missed out of stuff like hips and more femine views. Someone here acually said I didn’t look a day over 35, I’m 22. I just feel like being in the closet and just looking like a nobody dude, who avoids talking to people is the best course of action. If I’m lucky the second hand smoke I grew up with will kill me when I’m 40.
Sky are you in contact with your doctor and/or a therapist? Even your nutritionist (at your GP).
There’s value to having weight in transition but there’s also some troubleshooting that is better left to a medical professional. Fat redistribution happens when fat is gained and lost. Our bodies aren’t automatic.
Holy shit someone tried to guess your age? ☠️ never guess a woman’s age dummy.
Sorry you’re having a rough time of it. Don’t let your ability to remain confident about passing (euphoria vs dysphoria) put your transition back on the shelf. I’m just gonna keep reminding you these posts are dysphoria. This is mental unwellness speaking louder than your logical mindful brain can.
I currently use a telehealth doctor to get my E, unfortunately I dont have insurance so proper healthcare has been out of reach.
Oh shit this might be me. My doctor told me to absolutely go to this specific clinic near me. Aaaand then my healthcare ran out before I scheduled and got an appointment there. I have to go buy insurance, but, I have a lot of doubts about it and myself 😞 I think I’m responding to dysphoria with avoidance, but I have other avoidance triggers going on.