I’ve been on HRT for two years, why do I still look like a man, why do I still look like this, why is my dystphoria worse than ever. Why do I hate myself so much. Why haven’t I’ve been loved and snuggled. Im just so sad with everything honestly can’t sleep.
for me i got a lot of confidence from trying a lot of different styles and finding what i felt most comfortable with. i did so much with my hair, different cuts (side shave was so fun), dyeing it, different methods of heat styling (for real, spending a bit of extra money on finding heating elements that cant physically burn your hair is SO worth it, i feel with my curly hair going for more even curls was the way to go, e.g. wrapping it around a conical element), digging through bras and bra types until i found the perfect kind for my body, etc. a lot of small things can add up to a greater whole.
two years is no time to be figuring out all these things that most women learn from being a kid to being mid 20s. i felt similarly after 2 yrs hrt, i felt like i was stuck.