I keep saying my deadname in my head, this kinda started a bit after a family gathering where I heard my deadname a ton. This was in may and sometimes I will just say my deadname in my head and it feels wrong, it also kinda makes my real name feel a little wrong, even though I know it’s not and I like the name skylar
The thing is I’ve been using my name for several years personally and for 3 years publicly
I signed an email with my birth name 3 years after I legally changed it :)
You’ll get there