Jk! Lol idk what I’m doing, I’m the new girl(I haven’t been one that long) but general convo if anyone is interested?

  • Vlaxtocia [she/her]
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    510 months ago

    Pretty mixed tbh, violently swinging between being sure I am trans and being sure I’m not. Point for (and the big one) I wish I were a woman 😂, point against, I feel ugly in women’s clothing

    • @Blahaj_BlastOP
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      610 months ago

      I feel you there. Although, the clothing thing doesn’t mean you’re not trans, it means you don’t like your body.

      I’ma hit you with this classic

      • Vlaxtocia [she/her]
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        210 months ago

        Goddamn you’re right, it’s just scary lmao. My face is turbo masc, and will be for a while. Think I’m going to talk to my therapist about starting HRT

        • @Blahaj_BlastOP
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          410 months ago

          Fucking same!

          Yes, it is! I wrestled with that realization for a while, I think I’ve more or less accepted it, but not sure what to do about it.

          I’m conflicted on hormones. On one hand, yeah it would help a ton of things, but that’s a huge step.

          • Vlaxtocia [she/her]
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            210 months ago

            For me, I figure it’ll decide once and for all whether it’s right for me, if it turns out it isn’t then I can just stop them. Everything feels like a huge step to me ATM, and feeling like a man in a dress is a problem for me. I wish I had the confidence some trans women have but I just don’t, I need to at least vaguely pass before I’ll feel cool socially transitioning

            • @Blahaj_BlastOP
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              210 months ago

              That is a great way to think about it, I think I was making a similar realization recently.

              On the rest of it, are you me? I’ve said basically all of that before, some it in those same words! 🤣

              All I can think if slowly make ambiguous changes til I feel I can attempt to pass. An example would be to grow my hair out but deal with it differently depending where I’m at til at some point it could be long enough to do something clearly fem with it. My dad grew his out looking like an old hippie in retirement, so I could pass it off like that at first.

              • Vlaxtocia [she/her]
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                210 months ago

                Yess that’s the plan, got some finasteride for the balding so I can grow it out nice and long. GP just refused to prescribe me 5mg dose though :( yay transphobia

                • @Blahaj_BlastOP
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                  10 months ago

                  Sam’s club has generic minoxidil that can be delivered for $20/6 month supply. That’s what I’m trying atm. I think it was like $50 for the membership though. Meds are insanely cheap there though, so that alone feels like it makes up for it. I just got a derma roller to try out some microneedling too. I’ve only done it once but it’s a bizarre feeling.

                  • Vlaxtocia [she/her]
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                    210 months ago

                    Ah the finasteride I’ve got is working, on a 1mg dosage because of hair loss, suddenly it’s for trans issues and they’re all fucking hesitant. Gonna speak to my therapist and see what they recommend, might just end up getting the lot privately anyway. Don’t think Sam’s club operates in the UK, thanks anyway though!