And somehow getting enough serotonin to get through the next day

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      And then morning workout flies out cause I am not going to work out when tired right? I can just do it tomorrow when I will be well rested to get ‘‘best efficiency’’

      I feel so fucking guilty since a week of skipping it I literally want to cry but I am too tired to do it now

      Thing is it is important cause of the trans things and figure you know I have smoll legs I need to carve proportions with sweat and protein uh. I barely can look in the mirror tbh. But just a one good night of sleep

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        It’s no shame having problems fighting the executive disfunction. Some days it is OK to look after yourself and recharge. Your not alone, don’t be to hard to yourself.

        I don’t know much about trans issues, but you are valid. Don’t set your goals to high, you don’t have to look someway to be yourself. But I hope you get to a point where you are comfortable in your own skin either way.

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    Sleep deprivation got me through many years of work. Not being able to GAF results in not GAF, which is the healthiest possible work and life attitude.

    Now jobs I liked (because they paid well) working for people I liked (because they weren’t micromanaging bungholes)? That was different. Regular old grind though? Yeah, I’m giving my least.

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    I was always suprisingly calm if I didn’t sleep too much. Like everything was slowed down to the comfortable level and I just felt yawn more at peace and chill

    But maybe that is more anxiety things. Whatever the reason I was sleep depriving myself casually throrought all the school years because it felt better to be sleep deprived

    I really need to limit the words cause you dear goldfishes lol

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    It’s late and I should go to bed or I’ll feel bad tomorrow… but I LIKE what I’m doing now, and this beer won’t finish itself

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    Seriously, I get home by like 18:00-19:00 and only have about three hours to myself if I want to have my eight hours of sleep. Thankfully at least my job is a very cozy office job where my workload is very mild.

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      Yup, I get home between 17:30~18:00 but it’s only when I’m already in bed at night when I feel that I can play for a little bit or mindlessly read social media without feeling guilty about not doing anything productive.

      Sure, I can play or watch tv sometimes in the afternoon if I don’t have any urgent chores to do but there’s this constant inner voice that doesn’t let me enjoy it.

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        I still feel guilty because I have ambitions, but really I’m struggling with just surviving it really is hard to do well these days…

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      I do the opposite go to bed early and responsibly only to wake up 5 hours later thinking that’s enough sleep for a 12 hour shift… it never is