• @Catoblepas
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    1710 months ago

    Me when I realize in therapy that this weird anecdote about my family was actually a link in a long chain of generational trauma. 🥲

    • @Blahaj_BlastOP
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      1810 months ago

      “… That reminds me of this funny story about the time when…”

      therapist not laughing, but takes notes

    • @Catoblepas
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      1010 months ago

      Zero judgements from me, but if nobody has ever told you, that’s a PTSD symptom (ask me how I know 😩). Just wanted to affirm that it’s real and not a personality flaw if nobody has ever told you before. If you have access to therapy it’s definitely a topic worth exploring with a good therapist that you trust.

      • @lightnsfw@reddthat.com
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        610 months ago

        Thanks, therapy isn’t really an option for me but overall I’m pretty well adjusted because of it outside of a couple of areas so it’s not TOO bad.

        • @Catoblepas
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          410 months ago

          Understandable, it took something like 20 years for the stars to align for me to both have access to therapy and find a good therapist. Glad to hear you’re otherwise doing well!

    • @Blahaj_BlastOP
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      2310 months ago

      I think my family called it “I’ll give you something to cry about”

        • @Blahaj_BlastOP
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          910 months ago

          Oh my GOD! that’s horrible! I’m so sorry. Those last two are just awful. I could never say that to mine.

          Definitely unlocked some memories involving the word >!pansy!<

          It looks like there’s too much going on for your spoiler.

            • @Blahaj_BlastOP
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              410 months ago

              I’m glad to hear you’re doing better! Are you saying that “oh shit” moment happened a couple days after talking to the psychologist? That honestly sounds better than my realizing while laughing at egg_irl 😅 Self-diagnosed by memes twice now!

  • @Blahaj_BlastOP
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    610 months ago

    That last part actually sounds kind of sweet. Definitely not the first part. My realization cause a lot of anxiety and still it’s difficult to try new things because of it, even though I accept it.

  • @BloodSlut@lemmy.world
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    510 months ago

    Other people have real trauma, but I was sad as a kid so now my brain has decided we cant have anything nice anymore

    • @Blahaj_BlastOP
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      610 months ago

      It’s all relative. You don’t have to compare your issues with anyone else’s or else there’d only be one person who had it worst that would be allowed to feel bad. Sometimes it’s because of internal struggles that make things difficult and you don’t realize til later. I only relatively recent realized I had been depressed a good chunk of my life, and likely due to having undiagnosed adhd literally making everything feel harder for me.