beginning this week’s reading:
Started HRT yesterday. I’m really, really hoping that I can end a decade-long plus dissociation and stop feeling like a walking ghost. Here’s hoping.
They upped my dosage of Lexapro and everything feels like that one monologue to Fight Club: “When you have insomnia, you’re never really asleep, and you’re never really awake. With insomnia, nothing’s real. Everything is far away. Everything is a copy of a copy of a copy…”
Last week I solicited a donation for our town’s seed library, which is hosted by the town library. They’ve never had so many seeds to give out or use for the community garden, which donates all the produce to the local schools and food bank. Here’s what ours looks like (imgur) for anyone interested in helping their local library set something like this up.
Yesterday, we played And Out Come the Wolves for Juniper and she seemed to really like it, she even started singing along with me (singing is doing a lot of lifting here, she’s not really doing words yet)
Great in general, limited by back and neck locking up… Trying to do so many things but I have to prioritize literally doing nothing as my back and neck are not in good shape and so I am a bit sad I can’t do everything I otherwise could… For example if I study math it is like studying with an egg timer in my neck, so I can’t afford getting stuck on problems as it physically punishes me lol. But I get a lot of other things done, I just have to settle for surface level and not deep dives that require spending hours in similar positions.
Just came from the doctor so that’s on my mind right now. But it is all from a source of excitement. If I wasn’t loving what I was doing I wouldn’t be bummed out by not being able to do it.
Had a fun weekend.
Yesterday I ordered a bunch of nail products to step up my nail game. I’ve been just doing flat polish with nothing else on it and it was getting boring. Now we’re leveling those babies up with base coats, top coats, glitter and more colours 🙂↕️🙂↕️🙂↕️
Also feeling less gender dysphoria now that the sun’s out and I can wear more fem things again without freezing to death 💅
Just got back from a trip with my college friends. We’re a bit spread out now so it’s been awhile since we’ve all been in the same place. It was really nice, and we’re going to try to make it a yearly thing!
Burnout. Gotta sacrifice some of my Sundays hanging out with my bf. A lil sad bc he’s the only person right now on my life that has free time(ish). 🫠 Then the rest of my week is busy. Saturdays are workdays. Mondays–Thursdays have a mix of work, schoolwork, and homework.
And I’m looking for summer internships, and trying to find skills to work on in the meantime. Not sure how much time I have to prioritize this stuff though. But uh… I need to find a job asap once I graduate. I dunno.
Life has been tough. I’m hoping summer will be easier.
Comics… Equally enjoyable as they are frustrating (crossovers and reading orders make things unnecessarily complicated).
Other than that, pain and fatigue. Didn’t want this year to be like last year, but it seems many appointments are on the horizon.
Lots of Monster Hunter: Wilds. I’m at the point where I’m basically farming for dicerolls: Decorations, artian weapon materials.
I’m still only on chapter 3 I think? Haven’t played too much yet. Gotta go look up some tutorials on weapon combos and figure out how to organize my items and load outs.
I feel like I’m missing my attacks a lot more compared to MH World, but maybe I’m just really rusty haha
I’m missing a lot, too, but I chalked that up to the game being a little more lenient, thus giving me more room to freestyle instead of turtling.
I’ve played Gunlance since 4U, which has kept things relatively stable for me (aside from the occasional addition/removal of things like Blast Dash). I also picked up SnS this time around so I can take on group hunts with the Power of Friendship and Mushrooms.
Do you have any fav gunlance builds? I’ve started trying it out for wilds and it’s very fun and stable (albeit a little boring at times when your friend is playing something flashy like dual blades or longsword), but I’m not really sure if I’m getting the most out of it.
Ive also picked up insect glaive finally after putting it off for all of worlds and rise, it’s so fun!! Jumping goes brrrr
I haven’t been optimizing all too much tbh. The speedrunners and metagamers will tell you that that wide gunlance (specifically G. Lawful Bors) is the best endgame GL, but I like Long shelling and have been using the Gravios gunlance. The blast damage it gives me lets me boom when I boom, and the long shelling lets you hit the monster without being up in the ankles like other weapons need to be. Aside from that, you want to get Load Shells and Artillery to max levels, and then fill in the rest of your decorations with offensive guard, and then guard or guard up. The rest is just filling in damage buffs in your armor, with the minimum of defensive buffs you need to not die.
Poke-shell-guard is kind of the oldschool, solid, kinda boring way way to play from previous games, but the most fun/risky way is finding out how far into the shellhop->sweep->wyvernstake full burst->second wyvernstake full burst->quick wyvernfire->second quick wyvernfire combo you can get before the monster slaps you. It’s a lot easier to aim in Wilds if you just stay in focus mode, too.
IG is fun! It was one of the 3 or so other weapons I tried in MH4U before I became a series-long gunlancer!
Thanks, I’ll go chew on that for a while hehe
Last week I released the blog post I mentioned previously. It’s now in Finnish and English.
I have an old netbook from 2011 that I have used as my home server since 2017. It has a 1 TB SSD, and for some time it had weird problems such as “Remounting filesystem read-only” and “EXT4-fs error”, usually leading to crashes. After rebooting, Ubuntu’s boot screen would not always appear. According to SMART, the drive was however all fine. At first I replaced the file system’s journal and ran fsck. That wasn’t enough, and the problems persisted. I was about to RMA the SSD, when I put Gparted Live on an USB stick and used that for fixing the file system. And it worked, now the home server has worked all fine for over three days!
Two thoughts in case unexplicable stuff happens again:
- SMART doesn’t detect all possible errors, especially not on SSDs. (It was originally designed as an early-warning system for mechanical failures on spinning rust drives, and later somewhat expanded.)
- A faulty RAM chip can cause all sorts of subtle (and not-so-subtle) mayhem but is often overlooked as a possible cause for disk troubles. If in doubt, MemTest86 is your friend!
I even ran MemTest86 and it showed things to be all fine. I recently bought new memory (2 GB) for the netbook.
