so many people say they support me even if i have autism and bipolar. they say they don’t mind, that they want to help me. they’re lying. they take it for granted, think i’m weird for something i cant control, take advantage of me and abuse me.
my friend lied about being this very supportive person who believes in equality. she hates me for being bipolar and autistic. she lied.
a girl broke up with me because im bipolar. she called me a creep and a psychopath.
I also have bipolar II / autism. It can definitely be a grind. I’m v lucky that I am self employed in a creative field, where my oddness is valued.
The most difficult aspect of life for us is, imo, dating. Especially with the rise of ‘the ick’ phenomenon. Neurotypicsl people usually make a v quick internal judgement that we’re ‘weird’ or ‘unsuitable for friendship’ (very illuminating and sad study on this I read recently).
During the pandemic, I got heavily into stoic philosophy, along with some Buddhist learnings. Not mastered either but they’ve been a bigger help than medication I take.
Check out an audio book: ‘Derren Brown - Happy’. It will give you a bunch of very effective tools on how to manage external stressors. If you never used audible, they usually have a ‘one month free trial, keep one audiobook’ deal. Get the above book then cancel 😁