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It was just for a moment, but I saw her in the mirror at last! Not the usual guy, not someone who looks like my mom, but straight up “that’s a girl”. The real me. Joyful but also kind of isolating: I don’t think I could explain to anyone around me just how it feels to actually recognize my reflection.
Also I got called “onee-san” for the first time, and I wasn’t even trying to look fem. Unexpected, but I’ll take it :3
Oh, and I went out to a year-end party including some people I hadn’t met before. Including some guys. Which was nerve-wracking, but it went OK. Props to my friend who introduced me as “this is <new name>, we’re all girl pals.”
