• Dharma Curious (he/him)@slrpnk.net
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    2 months ago

    No, not gross. Before I knew I was gay it more frustrating than anything. Like, I knew this was sexual, I knew I wanted to enjoy it, and I knew it made me horny. But it wasn’t enough to cross than line into, like, getting me there and being enjoyable. It wasn’t until I found my brother’s porn magazines that I really enjoyed porn, and that was because of the guys in it, and a few erotic stories in them written from women’s POV. I still didn’t realize I was gay or that it was the guys getting me there until one day, when I was like 13/14 and I had a blackberry. I found a site that had nude pictures of celebrities (some blog, not like a dedicated site), and there were (I’m assuming fake) nudes or Kirk Cameron on a boat. OMG, I got off so hard, and then went into full panic when I realized what that meant. Spent the next few years trying to figure out how to undo it. Lol.

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      1 month ago

      That’s a really interesting story but …

      Kirk Cameron?

      Mike Seaver from Growing Pains?

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        Yup. Had a major crush on him growing up (though I didn’t recognize that’s what it was, exactly), and then found that pic. Lol.

        I have a bit of a type. Well, like 100 types, but one of them is definitely the cute slob or schlub type. Think smells the armpit of a T-shirt before putting it on while listening to green day. Lol always does it for me