[Requesting engagement from trans-feminine people on HRT]

I don’t yet know when I will begin hormone replacement therapy, but the anticipation leaves me prone to developing expectations I worry are unrealistic.

Not sure how best to explain. My emotions, and sometimes my expression of those emotions, will feel masculine when heightened. Feeling intensely happy or angry about something even unrelated to my identity, those feelings give me dysphoria because of how masculine they seem. It’s not that being happy or angry is inherently masculine, of course. The dysphoria comes from the emotion’s manifestation seeming masculine.

I don’t know if this makes sense, but has anyone experienced something similar and/or seen changes to these sorts of things?

  • lady_scarecrow (she/her)English
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    8 months ago

    Absolutely. Before starting HRT I felt constantly frustrated about… something. There was some deeply rooted resentment in me and I didn’t know what it was about. And yet, people would constantly tell me how I was so “calm”. I’m sure that was just me not caring about anything.

    Finding out I’m trans did help with some of that, to some extent. But only when I started HRT did these things really vanish. I just feel normal now. Like this is what it should’ve been from the beginning.