This post is technically breaking a rule as it is not strictly trans-related, but I’m gonna try this out. I intend for this community to be a place where trans people can feel supported, and providing a place to vent in a safe space is part of that. Might make this a weekly thing depending on what y’all want.

So, how has your week been?

Note: this is NOT a place to get professional counseling. If you have an emergency or are really struggling, the Trevor Project provides free 24/7 crisis counseling for LGBTQ people.

https://www.thetrevorproject.org/get-help/

  • oNeviaMEnglish
    4•4 months ago

    Well, today was kinda rough for me. Been pretty anxious and insecure all day. Took my very first injection of E Friday night. So about 72 hours ago. I know it’s crazy early, but I should be at the peak estrogen levels now and I don’t feel much different. The first 24 hours or so I had this amazing sense of calm and the ability to pick up on all the small details in life I had always missed and now that sense is gone.

    Logically, there shouldn’t really be any major changes yet but emotionally I wanted to feel something? I wanted something small to hold on to that told me things were changing and changing for the better. All I have currently is sleepyness from the Spiro and peeing all the time.

    Just feel on edge because a small part of me is scared this isn’t going to make a difference. But I can also recognize that my emotional state is pretty heightened right now and that may be the E doing it’s magic.

    I know it’s not like I’m going to wake up and BAM my dysphoria and self hated just melt away. But I thought there would be a little more. Just trying to hang in there while my T drops and my E rises. ❤️