Lately I have been listening to the album “The Blessed Unrest” by Sara Bareilles.

From “I Choose You” being the song my wife and I chose to walk down the aisle to (before my egg cracked) to that same beautiful woman playing “Brave” for me - giving me strength to come out as trans to family. This album has become a staple in my transition and it’s easy to see my self throughout it’s lyrics and melodies.

“Hercules” is also a good song about pleading for inner strength - which for me, means becoming my authentic self as Olivia. Here is a verse from that song that resonates with me:

I’ve lost a grip on where I started from
 I wish I’d thought ahead and left a few crumbs I’m on the hunt for who I’ve not yet become But I’d settle for little equilibrium
 There is a war inside my heart gone silent Both sides dissatisfied and somewhat violent The issue I have now begun to see
 I am the only lonely casualty

  • oNeviaOPM
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    8 months ago

    Can’t help on the grammar as that has always been my biggest weakness, but I can totally relate to putting on the straight guy act.

    I wouldn’t even allow myself to listen to anything I perceived as a little too feminine. A very real “this better not awaken anything in me” type of feeling 😅