I am my gfs first partner, she is my second. The girl I dated prior (for 6 months) was a vlogger and for like 3 months made a lotta relationship and prank videos wth me which I was fine with at the time. Now my current gf is my first ever real crush and Ive been into her for a decade.

So my gf stalked my ex somehow, idk how consodering Im not on social media myself (this account is the literal exception). She then asked a LOT of questions about my ex, I dodged just about every question. After that she just pulled away and was distant and would barely talk to me or meet up. She finally told me she found my ex’s yt channel and watched every single thing on there.

Now I think Ive been VERY understanding and comforting to her, reassuring her literally every day since, being very loving and romantic to the point of cringing myself out. But she never really got over what she saw, idk if she rewatched that stuff or not but it was def smth thats always been in the back of her mind. She also knows that I broke up with my ex since I was moving countries and not bc the relationship was bad.

Now for the terrible part, smth i truly did not remember was that me and my ex had made a more personal video which was still saved somewhere on my laptop. I absolutely did not know of this and if I did I woulda gotten rid of it. Now my gf has access to my laptop (with my approval ofc) and she somehow stumbled upon it, I caught her curled up in my bed absolutely bawling her eyes out with the video playing on my desk. I have never felt this disgusting.

This is the first time my gf has denied my hug for comfort or just been so repulsed by me, she wont touch me while i explained everything, I deleted said video infront of her and begged her for a week. First she told me she needed to think things over but knowing her she wanted me chasing and I did just that, second week Ive given her space and theres been no change. We have had 2 dry 5 min convos in the last week.

How do I fix this or make it upto her???

Tl;dr: Gf found an old personal video involving an ex and wont talk to me anymore.

  • SnokenKeekaGuard@lemmy.dbzer0.comOPEnglish
    18·
    1 year ago

    The youtube videos were just romantic stuff mostly, the video she found on my laptop was of a more adult nature. I know she can be insecure bout my last repationship, but I think I’d react similarly if I was in her situation.

    • yads@lemmy.caEnglish
      31·
      1 year ago

      I think the point was that her initial reaction to the YouTube videos was not appropriate to the nature of the videos.

      1. She stalker your ex online because she’s feeling insecure and wanted to compare her to herself
      2. She watched them all even though it was causing her discomfort
      3. She gave you the cold shoulder because of harmless videos with your ex. Is she expecting you to not have a life before her?
    • BarrelAgedBoredom@lemm.eeEnglish
      21·
      1 year ago

      She was.looking for a reason to feel bad and she found it. That’s not your fault OP. Your gf is very insecure and it has nothing to do with you, you’re just the scapegoat. It seems like she’s not ready for a serious relationship, and you may not be either, OP. There’s no “making it up to her”. Based on the very little bit of information present in this thread (take what I’m saying with a grain of salt because I may very well be 100%) it seems like y’all might have some codependency issues

    • elscallr@lemmy.worldEnglish
      14·
      1 year ago

      but I think I’d react similarly if I was in her situation.

      That’s worse. You understand that’s worse, right?

      • elscallr@lemmy.worldEnglish
        5·
        1 year ago

        I have fucking terabytes, literally, of data. Backups from this phone or the previous, or this laptop or the next, just tons of data, on this drive or another or stuck in a personal S3 storage. Yeah I’ll delete them if I find them but I’m not about to fucking put effort into it. It’s all encrypted, even if it’s found it can’t be opened without explicit permission and action even by the best security engineers in the world, but that doesn’t mean I give a shit about making sure it’s deleted.

          • elscallr@lemmy.worldEnglish
            4·
            1 year ago

            I might remember, I might not. Honestly I couldn’t tell you the password for most of it, I don’t know it. I’d have to go through a whole ass process to get access to most of that data, it’s in glacier now.

        • Dr. Dabbles@lemmy.worldEnglish
          7·
          1 year ago

          She’s handling all of this immature as hell, and playing your porn so you’d come find her crying is extremely childish and dramatic. But if my partner found porn of me, she’d be beyond pissed off.

          Stalking your ex is some weird shit. So, lots of red flags here. Good luck, hopefully you both work out whatever you need to. But I’d think long and hard if you want to date someone that’s got the dating IQ of a high schooler.