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Talk about what’s happening queerly in your life - like coming out, getting HRT, questioning, and all that good stuff.
No cishets allowed! 
just got my shipment of hormones and testoblockers, next few months are covered again.
love how they’re marked all the way through as something completely different, so even if some nosy dickhead breaks the package even the order confirmation has me covered, this random person in turkey has more solidarity with me than my fucking state that just decided to stop coercing us into sterilisation this year, so that’s great. fucking
s and their consequences istgWhy the fuck is increasing my E getting me so horned up, wtf. I was
warnedassured that it would make me celibate. But noooo, apparently I’m the one trans girl with the secret genetic makeup that turns E into a permanent party drug. After my breakup I was kinda hoping to leave that behind for a bit…nah, it does the same thing to me
lol I think that’s pretty common. My guess is that many of the women who lose all sex drive may be on a high anti-androgen and a low estrogen dose, which maybe isn’t the best. Things will probably calm down once you’ve adjusted tho.
still wanting to go back to normal 😔
hope everyone’s having a good week!
Went to a new therapist that I really like (they’re not cis)
It’s my favorite thread!
I’ve had an interesting couple of weeks because I moved to a new place, and also my girlfriend kind of moved in with me. Like she’s not living her all the time, but she has some stuff here, comes over every weekend at least, and also left her Blahaj in my bed. I really like her, but honestly I’m a little bit nervous. This is like my first serious relationship where I’m an adult with my own place and a job and stuff, and I don’t want to mess things up. But I have known her for a while, it’s not like we rented a UHaul after the second date. She was here for most of last week, and after she told me that my place felt more like home to her than anywhere else she could go. Which is like adorable and wonderful and sweet, but also scary. I think everything will be good tho, we’re good at talking things through and stuff.
Also this is funny: I live in a weird old house that’s been divided into three apartments, and every apartment now has a lesbian couple living in it. What are the odds? Or is this some sort of strange plot by my landlord? Maybe he’s got a house of bisexual grad students or skinny-white-guys-who-smoke-weed-and-watch-movies down the street.
your updates about you and your gf have been so nice to read! glad things are going well, even if they’re a lil scary sometimes :)
my little brother has been calling me bro instead of sis. i freaking love it. i am a bro! (still calls me his sister to his friends). he and his friends almost jumped a kid for being transphobic but he cant remember anyone’s pronouns for his life if that gives you a picture of where hes at.
I love my trans girlfriends!
cute!
having a difficult time decing if what i want is a non-binay appearence or a non-binary identity, i feel like a resonate more with identity but i kinda struggle now accepting he/him after so much time fighting to no be called that. Also im perfectly fine with non-binary pronouns. Have anyone passed throught that? Apreciate some experiences
going to a local trans meetup tomorrow. i’m taking a super nice trans girl i met on an antifa trans discord there, promised to meet her a bit earlier so i can help her calm down her social anxiety. the place is very chill, but it’s her first time with that crowd, so i’ll see what i can do to make her feel at ease.
hope it goes well! :D
I hope so, too, but i’m not worried much, she’s such a sweet person and the people there are really nice and welcoming.
So I recently changed my pronouns to undecided. It feels more honest the way things have been in my head as of late.
Still no clue what the answer is. Would it be weird to not try and actively resolve it and just let things percolate a bit?
This isn’t weird at all, that kind of stuff can take time and you should just move at your own pace.
Thanks for the advice. It honestly feels nice to just “not know” for a bit. It’s like a buffer zone or something.
i get that, some things need time to sink in, and some just sort themselves out slowly.
“Negative capability do be pretty poggers”
- John Keats, 1817
I had not a dispute but a disquisition with Dilke, upon various subjects; several things dove-tailed in my mind, and at once it struck me what quality went to form a Man of Achievement, especially in Literature, and which Shakespeare possessed so enormously—I mean Negative Capability, that is, when a man is capable of being in uncertainties, mysteries, doubts, without any irritable reaching after fact and reason— Coleridge, for instance, would let go by a fine isolated verisimilitude caught from the Penetralium of mystery, from being incapable of remaining content with half-knowledge. This pursued through volumes would perhaps take us no further than this, that with a great poet the sense of Beauty overcomes every other consideration, or rather obliterates all consideration.
I think I might need to read old poets more, that excerpt slapped and it was just from a letter.
I will now aim to find a legitimate use for the term penetralium in everyday parlance
Thinking about asking my mom directly to use they/them pronouns for me. She used them for a little bit after I told her about my gender cornfusion but she stopped doing it after a while. I don’t feel ready to use she/her in person (online it’s easier because it’s not connected to my physical representation) but this would at least cut out the discomfort of being called “he” all the time
also working up the courage to join a local-ish queer discord. I just don’t wanna join and find out it’s like 5 random people and they’re all libs
I hope your Mom is cool! I think a gentle correction sometimes is good too, I do that with my parents sometimes and it helps.
You totally should join your local server. Probably a queer discord is one of the most leftwing spaces out there, so you might find a comrade or two. And even if not, it’s always good to know some local faces.
