I knew I needed to feel desired in order to fall for someone. And I kept running into women who just didn’t get it and acted all entitled. It just seemed like incredibly bad luck to me. Looking back, I’ve only ever really gotten anywhere with women who made me feel special. And they were always bi or lesbian.

Like sure, I definitely tried taking charge many times. I’ve certainly never lacked in courage or stupidity. But there always came this point where I was like: ok now you… when will you take me someplace special? And it would fall flat and I’d stop caring.

But let’s be honest I bet that’s the same experience a lot of hetero women have gone through with boys.

And now it’s totally different. There’s men who can give me that feeling with just a glance, and I’m up for exploring that. I’ll also keep dating lesbians but so far it has been lacking in intensity and has been quite lame.