Lately I have been listening to the album “The Blessed Unrest” by Sara Bareilles.

From “I Choose You” being the song my wife and I chose to walk down the aisle to (before my egg cracked) to that same beautiful woman playing “Brave” for me - giving me strength to come out as trans to family. This album has become a staple in my transition and it’s easy to see my self throughout it’s lyrics and melodies.

“Hercules” is also a good song about pleading for inner strength - which for me, means becoming my authentic self as Olivia. Here is a verse from that song that resonates with me:

I’ve lost a grip on where I started from
 I wish I’d thought ahead and left a few crumbs I’m on the hunt for who I’ve not yet become But I’d settle for little equilibrium
 There is a war inside my heart gone silent Both sides dissatisfied and somewhat violent The issue I have now begun to see
 I am the only lonely casualty

  • TranstronautEnglish
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    10 months ago

    After my egg cracked almost 6 months ago now, I went through a lengthy phase where a lot of music would make me burst into tears from sheer relatability. I thought I’d stabilized enough to be over that by now, but just the other day, Peter Gabriel’s “Solsbury Hill” got me good. Those themes of stepping out of the hazy drudgery of your comfort zone to embrace a new reality in the face of general confusion and/or disbelief, and having it feel so very right, are absolutely on point for the trans experience.

    The track I stumbled upon early on and keep coming back to is Röyksopp & Robyn’s “Every Little Thing”. It really felt/feels like a call from my inner woman to my repressed AMAB shell, and has become the motivational anthem for my transition.