I ask these questions, not as someone who is trying to cause issues or argue, but as someone with a lot of respect for this movement.

Your cover story is wearing pretty thin.

I genuinely want to know what people expect from people like Beau

This isn’t really about Beau, is it?

Very much like Beau, you’re deflecting and minimizing the facts rather than admitting that you were wrong. If you want people to treat you as a changed person, you need to demonstrate that you have changed. By not taking full accountability for what you have done, you’re indicating that under the veneer of kindness, you are still the same abusive person you were before.

This isn’t a tenet of anarchism, this transcends politics and culture. No-one owes you forgiveness for your abuse. You need to change, but you shouldn’t change because you think it will make people forgive you; you can’t force that. Everyone you hurt is justified in despising you, and everyone who cares about the people you hurt is justified in holding a grudge. You can change everything about yourself and never be forgiven - forgiveness can’t be earned. Forgiveness is a gift. It can’t be bestowed upon you through government, philosophy, or religion; it can only be given by the ones you’ve harmed. Anyone who tells you otherwise is selling you something.

It’s not what you and Beau did, its what you both continue to do that demonstrates you are not worthy of trust.