I’m comfortable being a woman with my lady parts. I also like to pretend. I told people I was male (transmasc, specifically) so that I could freely experience attraction to just men without having the “straight” label.
Whatever I was, I did NOT want to be straight, so presenting as a trans guy helped me feel better about myself. I could be a gay man. Then, I was a non-binary demiboy (either gay or bi but would only date men).
I felt like a girl in real life. I still do. I didn’t feel dysphoria nor a desire to transition in any way, neither socially nor physically nor anything. It just felt relieving to be a gay trans guy, but that still made me trans even though I didn’t identify as male nor did I ever see myself as male, right?
(I see myself as a woman and always have, I don’t have dysphoria. I identify as a woman who wants a penis. I think I’m moreso attracted to the idea of having male parts than actually seeing myself as a guy, but like I said, it relieved me to be gay and not straight.)
long story short, I’m a woman slightly attracted to the idea of herself being a trans guy or having a penis.
I can see why people would be suspicious of you because this sounds similar to what a transphobe might do to mock trans men, but as long as you’re doing this in good faith and not using it to overgeneralize anything I think it’s fine.
It reads like you don’t want to be a woman in a “woman” way? I think I get that. I’m transfem and gender fluid and sometimes feel like a man in a non-man way. But I generally don’t tell people that because it might give them the wrong impression and make them treat me in ways I don’t want.
I want to be a woman now, I just didn’t and don’t like the straight label. I only like men but I don’t want to be hetero.
Using gender purely to change how your sexuality is perceived feels icky to me. I believe that’s even a talking point transphobes use to delegitimize trans people’s existence.
You can be straight but not Straight™ though.
Oh really? Thank you. I dunno, I like the attention and closeness of a woman. I also like when women are pretty, popular and have common interests. However, I tend to like women less when they’re clingy, mentally ill, autistic (i just don’t like their behaviors, I respect them though) or lesbians (Can’t relate to lesbians because women HAVE to like men in order for us to be close.)
A great deal of my interests are hot men. I can easily name men I like but not women or other genders. Neither sexually not romantically nor any way.