My 14 year old cat has ckd and my biggest fear is that I won’t be there when she eventually passes. Since I’ve adopted her when she was 8, she hasn’t been too friendly with other people or animals besides me, so I don’t know who else would be able to give her comfort when she has to go (knowing of course, that’s not usually cat behavior when they get close to death).
And I just want to make sure she feels loved until the very end.
Great job, and good luck! It might be hard and take some time to get back into the swing of things, but take it day by day, moment to moment and things won’t seem so tough.