I understand the fear. It’s hard to live with the knowledge that who you are might mean you’re rejected by even the people you assumed would love you unconditionally.
But on the other hand, what’s the value in being loved for the character you play? Wouldn’t you prefer to know how they feel about who you actually are?
I saw from your other comment that you’re dipping into presenting more like you feel, and that’s great - there’s no rush.
I’m two years into hormones and my life has been so much better for it, despite being reluctant and uncertain at first - only in the past year or so have I really been telling people. Cis people are spectacularly unobservant and you’d probably be able to hide that anything’s changing for a while.
Is this that shocking? Ocasio-Cortez seems to be the only politician left of tired milquetoast liberalism with both the public profile to sustain a campaign and demographic profile amicable to the position.