I need major help with this. I am stagnating in life, I don’t know where to go next due to this issue.

The things I like to do (in cycles bc, as title said i dont stick to hobbies) are always something super competitive or don’t make any money. I like to learn, so I dive into all sorts of hobbies like coding, 3D art, vfx, video game development, a whole bunch of random things (but are generally about creation).

I do not have the ambition, motivation, or lasting interest to pursue just one of these things, ESPECIALLY not as a career. If I pick a career path based on a passing interest, I will hate my career and become even more depressed, and honestly just quit no matter the consequences (ive done this with jobs). I literally will pour hours of dedication into learning something random like coding (on this right now), and drop it next week like I never touched it and move on to another thing. I cant force myself to go back to it, either. This is a painful process to me, it’s as though my learning is all in vain as I let my knowledge fade away, and worse, this makes it so I CANNOT settle on a career.

If anyone has any advice for me, I am open to every and all suggestions. If you have been through similar and got through it, please let me know how. I do take adderall btw.

edit: thank you all for your thoughtful responses, i have read them and i do plan on answering as soon as i have the time! thank you guys so so much 💜

#adhd

  • insomniac_lemon@kbin.social
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    1 year ago

    Might make you feel better, I’m almost 30 and all I can say about myself is: oh no
    …because I’ve only had an unpaid internship at a car dealership (many years ago).

    I think the only hope I’d have is if I could find somewhere better to live without money (such as an intentional community) but even if what little I can regularly do now were acceptable/desired enough to get room and board, because of health (body and brain) I don’t know if I could even be reliable enough for that. I feel like I’d need to mesh well with the community too, and as an oddball shut-in even pre-2020 I don’t have high hope for that. Plus I don’t expect to find all this within biking distance (I’m in a somewhat rural area (USA)).

    I don’t (think I) have ADHD though, instead SchizoidPD/depression (but who knows w/brains though, eh?)… though I’m in a similar spot with hobbies (and never did enough personal projects to get actual skill/anything to show).