I (FtM) only had chick sonas until I actually realized I’d rather be a dude. Anyone else, or did you all have fursonas not of your born sex?

  • Laurentide@pawb.social
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    1 year ago

    Are we talking gender gender or sex gender? My answer varies depending on which one you mean.

    I was raised in a very conservative environment, such that I had no concept of transness or of gender as something distinct from what’s between my legs. “Male” was literally the only conceivable option for me. So when I developed a sudden obsession with foxes in my teens and started imagining myself as one, that fursona was of course male. Over time he developed into a sort of idealized masculine self: Cool, confident, cunning, stoic. (With OP magic anime powers because I was a teenager, after all.)

    But at the same time I started to realize there was this other side of me that I usually kept hidden. A real me. One my fursona could not express. So I made a secondary sona. A small, cute little arctic fox who was shy and timid but very much wanted to help people. Strongly empathic, emotionally deep, the sort of person to stop and smell the flowers because it would be sad if nobody appreciated them. Somehow they had ended up with a strongly feminine personality. But they’re me, so they have to be male, right?

    25 years later I finally realized what that little floof was trying to tell me. We may be amab, but we’re not male. Not on the inside where it matters.

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      1 year ago

      To reword the question, did you have a fursona whose sex matched your gender. If you were born male and only had male fursonas, then it’d be a no, but someone born male with a female fursona would be yes. To add to it, I wonder about people who had trans fursonas before they knew they were trans themselves.

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        1 year ago

        To add to my post. While my old fursona was initially male along with my birth gender, within the few months before my egg cracked, I sort of experimented with making a new raccoon girl sona.

        My raccoon girl sona, along with egg_irl, was what helped me crack my egg.

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        1 year ago

        Then I suppose my answer is no, as all of my fursonas are amab like I am. The arctic fox one’s gender was always feminine, though, and I thought of them as a femboy until I realized that gender could be different from sex. Now they’re sort of transfem non-binary, I guess? Definitely feminine, but fine with any pronouns. The fursona didn’t change but my understanding of the relationship between their sex and gender did, so maybe I did have a trans fursona before realizing I was trans?