I use drugs without a dependence despite my history.
After a lifetime of every aspect of my being getting invalidated, and my feelings torn to shreds, I should be dead.
But I’m not. I’m even relatively sane.
That’s despite my ARFID and germophobia being fake, my plurality and therianhood being delusion and conspiracy theory, and my queerhood and political standing just a lack of experience in the real world. I am fake, according to everyone. I don’t know how I ended up in an alt-right family, and meeting countless alt-right vermin online, but here we are.
I’m alive, and even happy and healthy, and I still deal with this shit on a daily basis. It nags at the back of my mind, but I’ve become resistant to it, because of my DIY psychedelic therapy sessions (that are making me delusional, apparently).
I would never assume you are fake. It would be premature if based on just my own trained expectations. Though… I am impressed to find a drug user whom it doesn’t develop into a dependence over, having done that only once.
It’s easy to not fall into dependence if you have self restraint. I put immense effort into research, to make sure my doses are safe, infrequent enough per drug, and I’m doing it for a good reason (enjoyment is a reason, as long as I have other hobbies). I hope to one day be a major advocate in drug safety, and create guidelines for responsible use. It’s no different than drinking safely, but with different things.
I use drugs without a dependence despite my history.
After a lifetime of every aspect of my being getting invalidated, and my feelings torn to shreds, I should be dead.
But I’m not. I’m even relatively sane.
That’s despite my ARFID and germophobia being fake, my plurality and therianhood being delusion and conspiracy theory, and my queerhood and political standing just a lack of experience in the real world. I am fake, according to everyone. I don’t know how I ended up in an alt-right family, and meeting countless alt-right vermin online, but here we are.
I’m alive, and even happy and healthy, and I still deal with this shit on a daily basis. It nags at the back of my mind, but I’ve become resistant to it, because of my DIY psychedelic therapy sessions (that are making me delusional, apparently).
Vivi, Despite the Planet. /ref
I would never assume you are fake. It would be premature if based on just my own trained expectations. Though… I am impressed to find a drug user whom it doesn’t develop into a dependence over, having done that only once.
It’s easy to not fall into dependence if you have self restraint. I put immense effort into research, to make sure my doses are safe, infrequent enough per drug, and I’m doing it for a good reason (enjoyment is a reason, as long as I have other hobbies). I hope to one day be a major advocate in drug safety, and create guidelines for responsible use. It’s no different than drinking safely, but with different things.