I have not been professionally diagnosed as autistic, though I am awaiting the diagnostic process. I am wondering a bit about (what I think are) my autistic meltdowns, as they are almost the same as (what I think are) my panic attacks. People often call them panic attacks as well, also with no panic involved. In both cases I am shaking, hyperventilating, sweating more and some other things. As far as I remember my latest panic attack, I don’t think I was really craving having as few stimuli as possible and wasn’t crying either (both usually being the case with the autistic meltdowns).
So: how are your meltdowns like? How are they different from panic attacks for you?
I basically just become mute and summon an uber to go home. In my head, the windows XP shutdown sound plays.
I am too in the process of getting a diagnosis. For my meltdowns: I either go mute with a stone dead ass cold face, or cuss everyone out loud, while I try to internalize the feeling of crying.
I just internalize my meltdowns for the most part.
Is it healthy? No, but it was worked for me this far.
Difficulty speaking, severe tension running through my shoulders, neck, and jaw. Fist clenching. A lot of rocking with some spastic shaking. Very similar to what you’ve described, save for the sweating.
Sometimes, I’m actually able to dissociate myself from them, so I can sit there and mentally call play-by-play while my body remains locked up and over-stimulated. That’s a bit of a wild ride.
Loud screaming and crying. Fist pounding on the table. Lots more crying.
Honestly I wish I could do that. I struggle to show any emotion and when I have a melt down my face has a slight frown. Usually no one else knows there is a problem so it looks super weird in a social setting. I just push though and try to mask harder.
Wow, I am unable to cry so I’m impressed when someone does it “easily”, does crying help to “let it out”?
Oh I don’t do it easily. That’s just when I have my big meltdowns. The small ones I can usually control until I am alone and can scream at the top of my lungs.
How old are you?
