Warning: The content of this post might be troubling, especially to those with a sensitivity to nightmares or suicide.
I have nightmares that turn into meta-nightmares. I will be in a dream and something threatening is trying to get me. I notice that what is happening is unrealistic or nonsensical, so I tell myself I’m in a nightmare and try to wake myself up. I try yelling as loud as possible, shaking, slapping myself awake, and just telling myself over and over to wake up. I even dream that in my bed in my bedroom fighting through sleep paralysis while trying waking up, while the threat is coming to my bedroom. It’s terrifying. Many times, I wake up happy I was able to finally escape the nightmare, only to realize I’m actually still asleep and the nightmare resumes. It’s very exhausting and disappointing because I will go through many cycles per night (up to 10 times) of thinking I wake up only to be in the nightmare again. It’s like I learn to not be hopeful that it’s over.
On a few occasions where the threat was so severe that I rather die, I have killed myself in the dream, and that works but it is terrifying and I wake up as if it were really happening. I wake up breathing heavily, sweating, super confused, and scared to go back to sleep again. It’s like I’m checking if everything is real and having to come to terms that I just committed suicide in my dreams. This only happens when I know I am going to die in the nightmare and rather end it on my own terms. So while it works, it’s not really an option in nightmares where the threat isn’t certain death since they seem so real in the moment. I also don’t want to build a mental habit of committing suicide every time I’m scared for obvious reasons.
In general, the nightmares seem to come in episodes of a few months. They then go away seemingly out of nowhere, and I’m back to normal dreams. I’m currently in the beginning of a new episode, so I’m trying to prepare for the next few months. I don’t have the option to speak with a therapist. I’m looking for remedy that I can employ myself. It can be anything, but I really enjoy learning, so if there is a book or skill recommendation, I would highly appreciate it!
Any tips on how to wake up during nightmares or any other remedies?
Did you try being bored by it? “Oh it’s one of those nightmares again, let’s get it over with. Where is the monster chasing me? Ah, there it comes, yes, eat me, I’m so scared, aaaah”
I never had such extreme episodes but enough that I did actually get bored by them.
What’s important to say is that I was a very anxious person, scared of everything. I did decide to start confronting my fears and getting rid of them. Part of it was accepting the fears and just letting myself be scared without the judgement of fear being bad. Accepting the fear as part of myself and my psyche. Getting bored of nightmares definitely coincided somewhere around that time.
So yeah, I would suggest working to solve your issues in waking life.
This is a great suggestion. I have had repeating nightmares in the past that resolved by confronting the fear in my dreams. The doom did not realize and the dreams eventually stopped afterward. Let’s see if I can remember to try it in the dreams and how it turns out. I’ll let you know if I’m able to do it. Thank you!