My dysphoria was so complete and fuzzy I didn’t really figure out I was trans until well into my 20s. I didn’t “like” being a guy and would often fantasize about what if I’d been born a girl and I did a lot of drag, I knew the process transwomen were expected to go through from a young age because I looked up what transition was, etc etc. I browsed subreddits like egg_irl for years. But I made do with being a guy.

I didn’t look in mirrors ever, I avoided looking at myself - this is only something I really figured out after transitioning and hrt and laser and stuff. I wouldn’t have said I didn’t like having a male body, I didn’t think of it that way. I didn’t really relate to guys and most of my friends in high school and college were girls.

Even with all that, I didn’t crack my egg until like 4 years ago - and then it was like all that latent dysphoria just rushed up and I had to deal with it. Then I hated having a dude body and started the regular slow process a lot of trans people do of, like, “okay I’ll just crossdress at home” -> “okay I’ll just wear femme clothes out sometimes and Ill do my makeup every day” -> “okay I’ll change my name and socially transition” -> “well, fine, I guess hrt will be good even though I’m happy with boy chest and Ill start voice training seriously” -> “okay sure, I’ll do a little surgery to grind off my adams apple and do electrolysis” -> “fine I’ll get on a wait list for bottom surgery” (not saying this is how every transition goes or whatever just that it’s how mine went and the general pace seems like a common experience)

If you don’t like being a guy right now, you can totally experiment and see what makes you happy!