Last september everything came to a head and due to my failing mental health I tried to commit. It failed and I’ve been off work ever since.
Next June will be my 10 year anniversary with this company. I thought I was, well, not “liked” but at least somewhere above just “tolerated”.
Well, that’s one fantasy out if this world.
I probably will be fired because of my prolonged absence. I used to dread that option, but now I welcome it.
For a decade I felt unheard & unseen and when I spoke up about it, people convinced me it was all just in my head.
But it isn’t. I really am as loathed as I feared I would be.
Then again, I loathe myself most of all, so I “understand” the situation.
I wouldn’t reach out either if the roles were reversed.
Without more info from both sides, this could go both ways, and most likely is a little of both.
Ultimately the onus is on the employer to have contacted OP to check on them.
I can totally see a toxic workplace excluding people they simply don’t like. Seen that happen a lot of times. The typical cool crowd culture often would exclude the people they deem as “weird.” But this is extreme to totally cut someone off.
On the flipside, it’s entirely possible OP is a self-fulfilling prophecy that seeks this drama even where it isn’t happening, and other people may have determined OP needed space, or grown tired of it and blocked OP out of mind to save their own mental health. Some people can be a huge burden, especially when they aren’t trying to help themselves but merely complain all the time.
Shrug. Who knows. I could see this being a lot of things.
OP, you gotta worry about you. I guess move on and find some happierness.