Nutmeg is psychoactive beyond normal serving sizes. It is a deliriant. Note that it is also toxic at these levels. Question; Does delirium sound enjoyable? If you’re in your right mind, the answer should be “absolutely not”.

With that being said, I’d like to see hell before I’m actually there. May as well. I’d do it just before death, so the wretchedness ends early.

That’s after trying every drug that’d otherwise be too risky for the long run.