scratch it with my nails or use a broken pencil on it

my blood pressure went up just reading that

you’re crazy. musky will be buying up those farms himself through LLCs then leasing them out to his kinda whites. nobody avoids the grift not even the one assuming they’re being let in on it.

velvet doesnt get me bad but paper is the devil’s texture. best explination i’ve found is Tactile Defensiveness. light touch with movement, especially on the type of skin that can grown hair, sets off the nervous systems fight/flight response. like nails on a chalk board meets being zapped by a low volt current. and varies in intensity from “this shirt makes me feel a little anxious” to “if you hand me a pencil instead the correct pen i will do violance upon your entire family tree”.

i mean, this is the real answer yeah. but i’m liking @Nemo@slrpnk.net’s answer and will begin enforcing ‘honored ancestor’ instead of my name.

edit: if it doesnt like properly this time it’s never going to…

his current mod practices are not my point. and he’s already banned from here, nutomic isnt a problem here for us in this moment. but if he retains control of the ml server/domain in some way. his responses to db0 definitely show him obsfuscating, not being naive or uninformed. when the blowback from his own statements causes him to drop the mask full-time. ml rules could become whatever he decides and the mod team becomes whatever he needs to enforce that. if the ml server governance is designed in a way to protect against that, great! the odds of it going fully hostile are lower.

“muscle tension”, for most of my life i though relaxed and calm were the same thing. then covid hit and i never had to go out. all verbal communication was done via scheduled zoom and i could immediately drop my facial expression. then i finally understood what if fealt like to have my muscles relax without being high as fuck. i love that my kid has become verbal, it’s great for him. but damn do i miss going days without saying or hearing a spoken word.

some people don’t like personalizations. this is the first account in at least 10 yrs i picked a username for. normally it’s just the string a password generator spit out. this time, i guess i figured after surving 18 months on world before deleting the account and moving. i could put 5 seconds into picking a name, since i’ll likely be on lemmy until it dies. at some point in the next year i may add the word ‘no’ to my bio but thats an excessive amount of personalization for me.

I don’t think anything significant would be lost by dumping ml. two years ago sure, the platform was too small but now ml is just annoying. I don’t know how the governance of that sever is set up. but if nutomic has control of the domain, its more a question of when will he decide to change ml rules. I trust ada to make the call when federation with ml becomes a problem. guess i’m just chiming in to reaffirm that for when the time comes. don’t know how lemmy as a platform grows long term if nutomic retains any level of control over it. but i’ll probably just be following you fuckin weirdos onto the next platform so it’s not that big a deal. maybe it could be a nostalgic return to internet forums.

my son is in a great communication and interaction program with dedicated space inside the school. lots of sensory adaptive tools and quiet areas. theres awareness that some of the kids just dont care about being praised, but making the content contextually relavent and assuming they have the self awareness to decide does work. though praise definitely works with my son. had a lot of really interesting discussions with his teacher. i may very well have had a wildy different experiance if that space had existed 30 years ago. at the time all that i wanted was to do self paced remote classes where i could submit everything via computer. which by highschool was an option. but at that time the only goal was me in a gen-ed classroom with my behavior adjusted to make everyone else around me comfotable. allowing me to do what would work for me was seen as failure by everyone making decisions.

for the tactile part specifically. e-readers, stone paper for writing and terraslate if i need printed materials. have significantly improved my life.

not like i have a hundred of them on my phone from last season or anything… heres some highlights, with the quality cranked down because lemmy is weak.

serenity rose:

pink sun:

purple sun:

soprano purple and a bee:

coral and a bee:

copper:

the second for sure. once a year there’d be that teacher who’d try to connect and it always went the same way. they’d assume i was feeling insecure about my ability and statements like “i hate touching this paper” or “grades are meaningless nonsense” were part of that. they needle me until i said fine and did a weeks worth of class material in one sitting. then they go “oh see this is amazing you’d be a straight A student if you applied yourself”. meanwhile my stress level is at an 11 from all the tactile sensery hell. and from that point on i’d just ditch their class.

Osteospermum. Some company named one of their color selections ‘serenity rose magic daisies’. serenty rose is one of my favorite comics and comic charaters. so next thing i know i’m the sarah anderson frogs comic with a few dozen Osteospermums in my garden every year and 7 varieties potted indoors for propogation.

i did and it does. though i forgot this account is new. maybe i’ll try to do a years 1-4 post when things are in full bloom later. lilies and native flowers will pop up on either side here as the summer progresses. this is maybe 1/3 of the garden, and it expands every year.

sometimes the void just needs yelling at. vent away.

work for a state wide university managing endpoints. if we exclude all the servers and iot stuff and just look at end user laptops in an effort to expand the use of linuxs, it comes down to support cost. we primarily offer win or apple as a choice with about a 60/40 split. theres a small specilized linux service for researchers outside the central service thats does most things as manual set ups by use case. I’ve pitched offering managed linux as a service a few times. i’ll keep doing it, but. it requires staff with knowledge in remote management of dynamically active device. who also understand the tools for supporting linux endpoints under any compliance req the spaces has. all of those tools are far more manual than the win/apple stuff. its hard enough to hire engineers for the apple side. you’ll have to grow your own, it’s just too specialized. all your documentation and training then need to be updated for a 3rd unique platform. its probably a 3yr undertaking at a few hundred grand per year in staffing to stand up. absolutely doable but it needs high level support in an org to do.

ok that was way better than paying attention to my zoom meeting. this is now canon for me. as i assume the pope intended when he drew the anime mascot.

it’s quartly planning week at work. which means four days of being fully active and engaged human. gonna be exhausting. but instead of complaining about that, i’d like to address the truth about japanese jesus you’re apparently withholding from us!?

three i think, with one making an attempt recently. got a sister who appears to get it but we’re not really close. two friends. one who’s kid got diagnosed a couple years after mine, then got herself diagnosed. the other recently went from “haha yeah im totally weird enough to be autistic haha” to “well shit”. after a conversation we had where a whole bunch of experiances she’s had dismissed by others, were also things i experiance. and my ex appears to be making an honest effort recently in an ateempt to connect with our son. fewer lazy cliche phrases, more pauses and thoughtful interactions from her to him. thats been really nice to see.

feral with each other

gonna be stuck in my head all day now. definitely stealing this one.

if you wanted a bot to kick off these daily posts so you don’t have to rememeber every day. that’d be ok. news bots seem to just be about generating lots of shallow content. this place has been rebounding well enough since you took over that we don’t need a bot as filler.