Most medical literature on trans people assumes that the vast majority of trans people started getting gender dysphoria since being small children. I suspect that a good portion of us got it later than that.

What was your experience with this?

  • miss_brainfarts
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    9 months ago

    I’ve never liked how I looked. Not really.
    I was able to look objectively attractive, I guess, but it never truly made me feel good about myself.

    So even without realizing until a couple months ago, I’ve probably had dysphoria ever since I started caring about my appearance. Which was about the age when puberty did its thing.

    Thinking back on it now, it’s all coming together.

    • Ari [she/her]
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      9 months ago

      Can relate, I never really hated the way I looked, but I definitely did not like the way I looked. Just always felt like I was looking at a thing in the mirror, not really myself.

      Those days are more or less over for me, hope you feel the same way.

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        9 months ago

        There’s still that guy in the mirror, but every now and then I manage to get a glimpse of how I could look in the future.

        Though it’s hard for me to look past the beardshadow, that one’s really screwing with me

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          9 months ago

          I was like that up until recently too. The sudden flashes of a girl I’ve never seen in the mirror then suddenly seeing my “guy self” again, that kinda stuff. Although I have never really had a beard, my mustache hair was super dark for a long time but has thinned with hrt. Its not super visible now, but still bugs the sugar honey ice tea out of me!