at around 16ftm, i had a group of online friends i interacted with. i also showed a lot of signs of bipolar and still do.
my one friend ryan (17m) told me to shut the fuck up, stop complaining, “just get help already” (i had therapy) and said people with mental illness were just burdens.
ryan also seemed hypocritical to me because he would say things like that but would also CONSTANTLY talk about how depressed he was and that life is just suffering, etc.
he then told me his behavior towards me was because he takes the “tough love” approach. he also proceeded to ghost me and made excuses for his behavior because of his depression, which he also said was tough love.
furthermore, i had a few online friends (19m, 23m, 30m?)
19m was just a friend of my friend (who also happens to be my ex, at the time 17m)
23m had common interests like games and tv shows with me
30m was someone i occasionally talked to, neurodivergent and didn’t have many friends nor knew how to make any. i was the only person he talked to and i would draw for him due to him not having time to do it himself.
ryan and his friends told me i was being sa’d, in fact, severely so, but i was too naive and liked them too much to realize and that it was their job as friends to protect me.
this gave me an extreme breakdown as they repeatedly shamed me for who i interacted with, didn’t really care about what i had to say sometimes, and accused random people of being sa’d when i have actually BEEN sa’d in the past.
i told them i don’t need them to take care of me as i could control who i talked to and if any of them tried anything like that, i’d block them.
- Define “toxic”
unhealthy for one’s well being, not a good friend, etc.
ryan and his friends told me i was being sa’d, in fact, severely so, but i was too naive and liked them too much to realize and that it was their job as friends to protect me.
By who, all the e-boys/men you were talking to? Because that would be a concern of mine if I were an adult in your life. Are these men grooming you? Are they making comments you are uncomfortable with?
If you are willingly participating in any romantic or sexual behavior, I only suggest caution - Don’t date any of them at your age, and for Gandalf’s sake, don’t meet with them. You can easily fall in love with someone online because they are what they want you to see, but also they could be legitimate sexual predators. I’m just being fr with you here - I know you think, “no way, I know them so well,” but so thought a lot of teenagers who went missing about the person on the other end. And it’s bigger than some weirdo now, you could be legit human trafficked.
they are not grooming me or pursuing anything with me. the majority of them have partners, who are people they know irl and their own age.
