she yells at me for everything. she hits me (not hard) ruins my mental health, doesnt want me talking to anyone besides her.

she says everyone hates me, that only she likes me. then she said that me not knowing social skills and being mentally ill was stupid and that im a terrible person. she told me i should die.

she hates me bc i have a disability, she tried to strangle me once and claim it was a joke. i hate her so much. i have to see her every day.

  • A_Union_of_Kobolds@lemmy.worldEnglish
    11·
    2 天前

    Okay. I should start with, you should find help. A therapist, counselor, social worker, maybe all three. I’ve seen a few of your posts - I’m not judging you at all, I just think you’re having a hard time right now and could really use a qualified person who can help you navigate things.

    Now, I know that’s not always easy or practical, and sometimes the help available to you isn’t what you want or need. I’m not trying to direct you to someone who’s gonna harm you. I just think you could use a hand.

    I think you recognize all the things you’re talking about are problems. It sounds like you feel powerless. What sort of options are available to you?

  • PhobosAnomaly@feddit.ukEnglish
    6·
    2 天前

    Thank fuck it’s an ex best friend now.

    Thanks for being here, and thanks for being you. I hope you find a decent friend next time around.

  • webghost0101@sopuli.xyzEnglish
    2·
    2 天前

    I also used to have a friend that hit me (not hard) when i was a teen.

    Took me until well into adulthood to realize that

    1. they actually hit decently hard cause it did hurt but i just internalized “they could hit much harder”

    2. It doesn’t matter how hard they actually did hit because the behavior and intend alone are problematic enough.

    3. I simply called them my friend coming from a lack of positive experiences in friendships.

    This is a slightly different case, i dont think there was any hate, just mental disorder. But the real friends i have now (also with mental health struggles) would never do something like this.

    People being frustrated with autism is normal, friends getting upset now and then is normal.

    Physical violence and expressing direct hate are far from normal.

  • LadyMeowEnglish
    2·
    2 天前

    Oh my gosh, so abusive! If you can, you might want to try therapy. :( I’m sorry this happened to you!

    • drbollocksOPEnglish
      2·
      2 天前

      my guardian is controlling as well, he doesn’t want me to have freedom or negative emotions, and i can’t leave to someone else’s house 😞

      it’s okay though!! i have therapy :)

  • drbollocksOPEnglish
    1·
    2 天前

    “im such a bad person for saying that. i didn’t want to tell you why i hate you because that would make me a bad person too”

    yeah. you are a bad person, tbh. if you hate people with autism, just say that. “disabled people make me uncomfortable” isn’t as bad as wishing them gone/dead/hurting them.

    there’s people who don’t like a group of people and then people who actively harm those people.

    if you don’t like something about someone, you tell them why instead of wishing they died and hating them.

    also, she’s right. everyone does hate me. she hates me, her friends hate me, my bf hates me, my family controls me and “loves me” even though they yell at me.

    • Drusas@fedia.io
      4·
      2 天前

      The individual you are currently ranting about aside, you would not have a boyfriend or friends if they hated you.

      If you have autism, then you understand that your ability to read social cues is limited, especially at your age (I don’t know how old you are other than that it sounds like you are still a minor stuck living with parents). Practice and therapy do help but take time.

      Avoid speaking with the person who is being abusive to you as much as is reasonably possible and discuss their behavior with an adult you trust.

      Sorry you’re struggling right now, but it can get better.