I feel like in a lot of my interactions I end up being viewed as a child, one of what I would consider my closest friends, legitimately views me as child to the extent where there are boundries people my age cross that I never have, I’m left in the dark regarding a lot. Even down to conversation being had about me that I’m not involved in, I just feel odd when another 23 year old knows who I believe isn’t closer to her than me knows about things I don’t know. I know I’m likely wrong and maybe I’m not as close as I thought but I just feel like it’s giving” the adults are talking” It’s also she will state that she loves me and cares about so much. I just get the vibe I’m a child.
This kinda contaminates most of my other friendships where people will distance themselves from me thinking I’m some sort of creepy child. I just don’t know what I’m doing wrong. I hate myself
You don’t hate yourself. You clearly can voice that you don’t like the feelings you get out of these interactions. You even wrote it down. So you can take it now to them. Tell them in basically the same words as you used here, that it makes you feel like that and you wanted to know if they can understand why you feel like that. Good luck.
