Given that different headmates may have different forms (at least in headspace) between each other, these forms may not always align with the physical body. Some headmates may have different forms compared to the physical body; maybe different in height, size, age, gender, or even species.
With that, how do you feel about your physical body in relation to yourself and how do you manage that? How do you handle the mismatch between physical and headspace body?
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For me, I am relatively different but somewhat similar with my physical body. While my headspace form isn’t always consistent, it’s generally within the same body type as my physical one. The differences are mostly minor, at least for the body.
The biggest differences are with my face and hairstyle, which greatly differs between headspace and physical space. It’s hard being reminded by how different I look between headspace and physical space. I don’t really identify with my physical body too much, to the point where I don’t like to look at mirrors.
And it’s hard to be reminded that even though we are all different people with different body in headspace, we share the same exact name and body physically that none of us feel as ourself. None of us are our physical body for some reason.
And I’m kinda lucky. Our other headmates are even more different to our physical body. It’s worse for our core/host as she’s a trans girl, so she has to deal with gender dysphoria on top of the general disconnect we have. Perhaps that’s why many of us feel disconnected.
We mostly deal with this by not thinking about it too much.
- Churchill
Luckily for us (me and woman who I share my body with), We are ‘twin’ so we don’t really have problem with our physical face however sometimes I did I wish my body would be a bit more ‘androgynous’ but I’m doing fine with our physical body!
That’s good to hear, but do you all find it hard to make both of you distinguishable from each other? Or do you prefer to be similar to each other?
I personally wish that we could co-front with more than one body, like physically sitting or doing things together. But otherwise we are fine, though we wish our body would match ourselves better.
I actually prefer to be similar with each other. Since we’re twin while we might look similar but personality wise we’re very different like day and night so it won’t be hard to know who is who. And yes we share the same wishes. We wish that we would have our own body to do thing together ( Especially for her that sometimes she wish to physically smack me when I overspend or something-)