• cowboycrustation [he/him]OPM
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    9 months ago

    I’ve already been medically transitioned for about three months.

    I’ve had crippling dysphoria pretty much since puberty. I would never go out and never wanted to socialize and meet new people because of it. It’s gonna take a while for me not to have significant dysphoria, but now I know that that day will come and I’m not fated to live that way forever.

    Dysphoria aside, the hormone itself did wonders on my brain. Around two weeks after taking it, my chronic major depression was greatly reduced. It still has that effect to this day. Almost like my brain’s wired for it.

    I plan to get top surgery as soon as possible. Still deciding on bottom surgery. Maybe if there are better options in the future.

    I’m concerned about the health issues and long term effects that come with testosterone. There’s not enough research on it. I would prefer not to get heart disease and all that shit but my quality of life has gone up significantly since starting. I was hardly living life since I was such a mess of anxiety and depression, so I figure the tradeoff’s worth it. I really hope I don’t get heart disease…

    Also cost… probably gonna get into some debt with top surgery, medication prices, and the costs of changing legal documents. Then student loan debts on top of that. A box of testosterone gel costs $70 with goodrx. I hate the idea of debt, but there’s not much I can do.

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      That’s really awesome to hear that your depression dialed down so soon after starting T! It’s funny how that works. I have never been happier than when I started E. We switched hormones in opposite directions and both of us ended up happier haha.

      I get what you mean about that dread of heart disease. When I started hrt they kept telling me that it might make me get blood clots and die lol. It didn’t happen, at least not so far, but some of those side effects they tell you are quite scary

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      Probably worth a look at https://costplusdrugs.com/ , $70 sounds kinda high for a med but idk what would be “normal” price for that. Actually I haven’t been on any meds in so long I have no idea what any meds beyond off the shelf stuff costs 😅

      As for bottom surgery… if you ain’t got one, you can pick whatever size/color/shape bits you want, at any time, for any occasion, but once a doctors attached something it’s there its… there. And present. Constantly. I’d love to see a future where we can get “grow your own” style bottom “treatments” via CRISPR or something, instead of surgeries.

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        This website doesn’t list any kind of testosterone, unfortunately. I’m in the US and typically testosterone gel is around $150. It’s a lot more expensive than testosterone injections, which are around $20. I am needlephobic so I take testosterone gel. Also a lot of trans men have more mood swings on injections especially in the last few days before injecting again.

        Edit: hi Zorsith I didn’t realize it was you

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          waves

          That’s unfortunate. Don’t think I could handle doing injections on myself either, I’m fine with docs usually but that’s a whole other animal of uncomfortable.

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        I do want one, but I stumbled across bottom surgery pictures and wooo that was intense. Also recovery is awful from what I’ve heard. There’s also two main options: somewhat normal looking dick but they have to take a skin graft from your arm so you have a permanent scar on there, plus it can’t get erect naturally (phalloplasty). Then there’s teeny tiny micropenis that can get erect but it’s too small to go in anything most of the time (metaoidplasty).

        Grow your own would be the ideal…there’s this one episode of South Park which sucks cuz it makes fun of trans women but there’s a whole thing where they figure out how to grow penises on rats and transplant it to humans. That would be so cool.

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          South Park has its moments. Big Gay Al’s pet store I remember being oddly wholesome, but it’s been nearly a decade since I saw it so idk if it would hold up.

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            Big gay Al was a good episode. I wish they’d make a good trans episode for once. Their “oops, maybe we were wrong about trans people” episode was super mid.