Well, as the title says, I Am curious what Dysphoria feels like for you? When/how did you realise, that certain feelings are in reality Dysphoria?

Edit: Damn, some of you really have lived through a lot. I Am very happy that I can’t really relate to quite some of the comments here, because that sounds horrible.

  • dandelionEnglish
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    1 day ago

    ahh, interesting. My world was dominated by women from the time I was born, I often thought that was why I wanted to be a woman (and a reason I used to discount the possibility I was trans, it’s just “normal” to feel that pressure as the only boy, etc.).

    My denial survived

    • being a teenager and asking one of my female friends to organize a girls night for me where I would try to dress up as a woman and hang out with them socially as a girl (nothing trans here!),
    • it survived telling my boss that I’m not gay because I’m not attracted to men that much, but it’s almost like I’m gay because it’s like I’m a woman on the inside (nothing trans there!), and
    • it survived decades of cross-dressing and choosing a female name for myself and trying to feminize my voice when I was around my partner (again, I absolutely am not trans!!).

    Looking back, I don’t see how it wasn’t obvious, but even now I have imposter syndrome and endless doubting.

    • cows_are_underrated@feddit.orgOPEnglish
      2·
      14 hours ago

      I’m not gay because I’m not attracted to men that much, but it’s almost like I’m gay because it’s like I’m a woman on the inside

      I feel you. Had the exact same thing. I first thought I was gay, but I never really liked the appearance of men. This was quite confusing.

      • dandelionEnglish
        2·
        9 hours ago

        to be fair, taking estrogen made my attraction to men much stronger, where before I never saw a man IRL and felt sexual desire, now there are times where I do (and strongly so, the way I might feel attraction to a woman). I think part of what was going on was that being attracted to a man as a man made no sense to me, but being attracted to a man as a woman does make sense - but more than that I think it’s just hormones, the estrogen flipped a switch and balanced out my bisexuality from incidental to moderate.

    • OldEggNewTricksEnglish
      2·
      1 day ago

      Oh, dear–the closet wasn’t even glass! I do get the “almost like I’m gay, but for women” thing, though.

      Funny thing about imposter syndrome: I can reflect on past signs all day long and still feel it, but thinking about the joy I get from presenting femme or the effects of HRT puts it to bed. Or rather, I don’t care if I’m faking it if I get to feel this good. Euphoria is the way to go!