Society facilitates media and people spreading harmful misinformation that makes victims and survivors question themselves. Unlike individuals, we can’t just become hermits and escape society.
I struggle with this personally because it deteriorates my mental health. It’s difficult to be happy instead of depressed or anxious. I know there is no support if things fall through. I know organizations and people will bait & switch promising aid to waste my time and further gaslight me.
I want to change all of this, but I’m not sure how. I don’t even know if I’ll ever be safe.
Hey, thank you for replying.
I agree that it’s faulty to think nobody cares, and I do have some who do care about me.
However, ~75% - 95% of individuals I’ve encountered have either ignored my dire circumstances, or even actively gone out of their way to invest their time, money, energy, etc. to harm me.
I pay a ‘grocery tax’ because other self-destructive shoppers at specific stores will ram their carts into me, take pictures of me, etc. I have to either order delivery, or shop at more expensive stores where I haven’t experienced this extreme conduct.
I once had a bicycling accident where I had a head-on collision with another bicyclist who another bicyclist accompanied, and I had to do a safety scan of my surroundings and run away immediately since I had no way of knowing if the accompanied bicyclist would get irrationally violent and attack me. The bicyclist I accidentally hit had no safety gear while I did, and they probably died from hitting me head-on - they were unconscious on the ground. I had no way of knowing who they have r*ped, murdered, punched, shot with a gun, stabbed with a knife, fired, slashed tires of, gaslit, etc.
I’ve since moved out to a safer area, but I still pay a ‘grocery tax’. I tried shopping at more affordable grocery stores, and then the same incident happened, so I stole some food as reparations and left a negative review on the place. I’ve learned that Google Maps will delete negative reviews while Yelp is more representative of the unhinged nonsense that happens, and that store was around 2.5 - 3 stars. The only other 4+ star store I could find was more expensive, and it honestly sucks that I have no other choice.
And don’t get me wrong - I am trained in self-defense. I know evidence-based self-defense and used it earlier with the bicycling accident to keep myself safe. My issue isn’t keeping myself safe - my issue is that I just want to get through the fucking day without anyone self-destructing on me. That’s it. Nothing more, nothing less. But they won’t leave me alone.
I’m out of time. Will revise this later. Realized I left our suspicious details of the bicyclists.