Did you ever have that dream, where you are inexplicably the opposite sex, and you start a new life and everything’s great, and then you wake up to crushing disappointment and it feels like your life is empty?
And then you realize you’re trans, and everything makes sense.
And then you start to transition, and start a new life and everything’s great, and …
Oh god am I about to wake up as my AGAB again? This can’t be happening to me; I knew I’d never get to be happy …
Anyway, I’m pretty sure I’m not imagining it. It’s not just me that sometimes feels like this, right?
In most of my dreams I’m AGAB, and sometimes in my dreams I’m trans (which is more like trying to pass rather than being the opposite of my AGAB). I think once or twice I’ve actually been the opposite of my AGAB without feeling that anxious sense of being an imposter.