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thank you!! 🥰
I was unexpectedly emotional afterwards, I think having testes to be removed and being a trans patient to medical staff really made me feel like I’ll never, ever be a woman. 😞
That said, the absence I feel where the testes used to be is surprisingly euphoric. Before the operation I wasn’t sure how I felt about the whole idea of “absence” there or whether that would be affirming or euphoric for me, but I knew it would be much more practical for outfits and tucking, etc. I can’t stop feeling happy every time I feel that absence.
Thanks for sharing! Don’t know yet whether I’ll go for orchi first or straight to SRS, but it’s good to hear about your experience. Hope the recovery is smooth.
I think straight to SRS is the more common path (at least with people I know IRL), and that makes sense for lots of reasons.
Orchi before SRS made sense for me for a few reasons:
Some of these are fairly personal reasons, so I don’t think it’s an obvious choice or anything. I also found talking through orchi vs SRS with my therapist fairly effective, she hit me with a question that clarified things for me: “How would I feel living the rest of my life with male genitals?” I realized that would be horrible for me, I want to be a woman in every way, and male genitals definitely make me feel like an imposter. Of course genitals don’t make the gender or anything, but I realized I felt a certain way and that in conjunction with lots of other evidence, SRS increasingly made sense for me.
Sounds like you made the right choice there 👍 I definitely understand all the reasons to want them gone.
Finally got around to getting a blood test today, so we’ll see if my levels are actually OK or it’s all in my head :3
oo, exciting - it’s obviously not all in your head, lol
I love every update you provide, it’s so exciting to watch someone go through a lot of the same moments as I just went through in early transition, there is so much unexpected joy 🥰
Wishing you luck in your own path, too - whether you want orchi or SRS and so on, I hope you are able to get the support you need and that it is a joyful process for you as well 🤗