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    12 hours ago

    gives up and goes to bed even though it’s 7pm and I haven’t eaten yet today

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        12 hours ago

        sorry to be the one to break it to you

        Take a quick look through my post history

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          10 hours ago

          When you go to bed because the alternative is trying to force yourself to do things you once enjoyed to kill time

          When you get into bed at 7 pm and don’t manage to get out of it till 11 am

          When you don’t feel hungry but you haven’t eaten in a day or two and you know you should and people would want you to but you can’t bring yourself to go make or get it and not eating feels satisfyingly self destructive

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          Thankfully now I can be mostly asleep for 15ish hours, it was hell when I would go to bed at 7 to avoid existence and would wake up at 3

          I should really just unalive myself and get it over with, things are worse than when I started drugs and therapy and there’s no way things are going to get better. Things don’t improve unless you improve them and I’ve tried and failed over and over